dazed and confused

Here I am. I´m still alive! I feel as though I have not been my normal self, which in a way, is true since I have not been living my normal life. Today, we went to church in a beautiful church in the Black Forest. I feel really disjointed, and disconnected, and I feel like I can´t talk (type) right since I have been speaking German/simple English for the last week and a half. I think I need to go back to school for my own language. I haven´t even been trying to teach Judah how to speak since I can´t quite remember myself!!! It´s always wonderful to see new places, and have a break from your everyday life, but, I can´t wait to get back home. Hopefully (I´ll explain the whole situation better when I can think and speak in clear English), we will be able to leave Germany on Thursday, and get home on Sunday!!! I feel like crying, I feel mixed up, you know how you get when you just want to cry and cry and cry? It took me a few minutes just to find the question mark on the keyboard! Of course, tomorrow will be better, but I really want my own bed, or my mommy, or both! I think I need to go watch a sad movie so I can just cry...or take a really long nap. Wow, this makes absolutely no sense and is so not cohesive! I had better go...