Saturday, April 29, 2006
Thirsty
I feel like I am dying of thirst, soulfully. I feel like my prayers wander into God's ears, but there is a huge vastness in between me and His answers. I feel disconnected to my life, and it doesn't seem like anything that I do makes a change. I still love to worship, I still pray under my breath as I'm working around the house, I still read my Bible as eratically and sporadically as I always have (always needed work in that area). I still believe in my amazing God, his grace and blessings in my life, and see him working, but I feel like I am watching from 'outside'. Weird. I am more convinced now of my faith in Him and what he does good in my life. I have been wanting to start studying women in warfare and applying it to spiritual warfare in a woman's (my) daily life, maybe that will jumpstart something, since I have a feeling that that is probably a big part of my current problem. And, we get to go to a conference at the end of May in Greece that should be awesome, both for me and Dan. better go get studying. Hey, elizabeth, do you have any source for 'women in warfare'? just curious.
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Matthew 5:6
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled."
Amen! Seek to quench that thirst! Many times we look at thirst as though we have been doing something wrong. That is not always the case. Many times God allows us to feel "thirsty" and "hungry" as a motivation to go deeper in our relationship with Him. Praise God! Go deeper! Live more fully! Pursue the intimacy with the Lover of your Soul!
Amber, I understand where you are coming from. As of lately, with all the battles raging around me, I feel like I'm not as close to God. But thankfully, it's just feelings and I can rest assured on the fact that God is actually closer than ever. And even though it may seem like my prayers are hitting the ceiling, and my walk is just blah, I know that God is faithful and strong in my life even right now! Honestly, it is encouraging to know that I'm not the only one that goes through those kind of times. Love ya and will be praying for ya. Hope that study goes well and that you enjoy the conference in Greece.
PS....Bob and Kalen will be there for it too!
There are so many seasons we go through. It's not our place to know WHAT God is doing during those dry times, full times, times of peace, times of conflict, only that He IS doing SOMEthing. We only see after the fact what kind of flower pops up from the planted seed. It was planted in dry soil, and yet look at the beauty that comes from it after a time of watering.
I LOVE you, Amber Joy. Seasons. It doesn't mean there's something wrong with you. I've found that when I have down times, dry times, still times, seemingly depressing times I can relish the up times, the watered times, the moving times, the "He's using me" times even more.
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